A Letter of Excuse

Dear friends,

I know that I have been gone for quite awhile. Well, life happened.

You see, I've always knew what I wanted to become even as a child. I wanted to be an artist. I have devoted a good time during school days to drawing, painting, crafting, designing, and almost anything art-y. I would rather do art projects than study. Modesty aside, I really think I was good at it. But most importantly, it was the one thing that truly made me happy. I simply love art.

Sadly, I never actually pursued it. I was made to believe that it was not the path that I was meant to take. But life has taught me a valuable lesson and B.M. Corona said it so beautifully:

life quote


At 38, my life has been full of regrets. And as much as it is easier to point a finger, I'd rather blame myself for not being strong enough to fight for what I really wanted. I blame myself for not taking charge of my life and live it the way I've always wanted.

One day, I found myself in a personal mess that placed me under the judgment of those that I love. I have betrayed them because of my carelessness and no matter what I say, I know that I couldn't take back what I have done. I kept telling myself that everything happens for a reason. Perhaps I was given this challenge so I can draw strength from it to finally make a stand. Perhaps I was nudged to do what I have been wanting to do for so many years -- to live freely. And so I did.

Home didn't feel like home anymore so I decided to get my own place and pursue the love of my life -- art. For years it is all I ever wanted. Especially when my love for nail art started, all I can think about is getting a place and setting up a personal nail station. I never really had a permanent work space back in our house. I was always being asked to transfer to give way to other people. And believe me, I moved around a lot. Consequently, inspiration drifted and this blog suffered badly with an inconsistent post schedule.

Independence is liberating. But the experience of settling into a new place was humbling as well. Some things were taken back and although it hurt, it was a price I was willing to pay for my freedom. If only I could take back the years that were taken from me as well. But there's no point dwelling on that now. I need to keep moving forward.

It took quite awhile to adjust to my so-called new life. Honestly, I am still adjusting. But everything is set in motion, including this blog. My only fear is that it might be too late for me to pursue my lifelong passion. But then again, it is never too late to chase a dream. And so starting tomorrow, this blog will breathe again. I have lined up a few nail art tutorials and reviews to jumpstart the ol' engine. I hope that you will all still be there to support me.

Simply,
Rins






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16 comments:

  1. Of course we'll still be here. I admire your strenght and determination - keep those up for the tough days ahead. You can do it and, yes, it's never too late to chase a dream and make it come true. Sending you wishes of happiness and success, dear. *hugs*

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    1. Thanks, Mina. Right now, that means a lot. Don't forget to come back tomorrow for the nail art tutorial! :)

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  2. It's never too late! Wishing you all the best!

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    1. Thank you for the support. :)

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  3. All the best for your new start. You are an inspiration!

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    1. Cheers to new beginnings! Still hoping to continue inspiring people with nail art. :)

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  4. From my own experience and that of several of my female friends life around 40 opens up a whole new and wonderful dimension - a window to new wisdom and awareness.
    Personally I didn't even grown up until then - and maybe I still haven't here at the age of almost 61. It's important to stay in touch with your inner child!
    What I am trying to say is that I am so happy for you - and you will notice that the next years will bring a lot of personal development and that your inner self will be stronger and more aware....
    Good luck Rins ;)

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    1. I truly hope so. Looking forward to a happier life with art. Thank you for the inspiration. :)

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  5. Good luck with it! I Hope you'll be so much happier and I'm sure you can follow your dream!

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    1. Thank you. I am praying for that too. :)

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  6. good luck dear, it's never too late to pursue your dreams :*

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    1. Life begins at 38! :) Thanks, nail crazy!

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  7. It's never too late for a new start! Follow your dreams and enjoy your life! Good luck! :-)

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  8. I will!
    And you are right, it's never too late. Lets be happy for once!

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